Freshman Year

Being in college has been great so far, I met a lot of awesome people that have changed my life forever. It has also been very challenging. This past week has been one of the hardest tests for me personally. I have had to deal with trust, illness, death and many other issues that test your abilities greatly. I am extremely grateful to have amazing friends that I can go to whenever I need to talk and I have no idea where I would be without them.

It all started on Wednesday when we had to pick classes... Let's just say after writing your schedule 8 different times and having classes fill up suddenly, you start to get pretty annoyed... So that was the start of my day... Well I call my parents to see whats up, and to tell them how angry that my classes kept filling up, plus I had to make a decision about taking summer courses, since Anatomy is pretty much kicking my butt right now... Well my dad tells me he wants me to move back to Pittsburgh and take classes at community college, because it would be easier and cheaper... I pretty much flipped out, because I don't want it to be easier... Would you want a nurse that just took easy classes to pass or someone that is dedicated and worked hard to get their job... I would pick someone that worked hard, especially since lives are on the line...

One of my close friends was in a car accident, they are not sure if he will make it or not so that has been extremely stressful and I continually think about it. I have also been helping my friend deal with the loss of her grandpa, which I know is extremely difficult. I lost my grandma when I was 15, I would spend hours with her, helping take care of her and doing things she couldn't, which made me feel great until she passed away. That was a huge turning point in my life, I went through a phase where I didn't trust God, I didn't think he cared about be because he never would have let that happen. I went to camp a few months later, and was moved by the music and everything I heard. Then my best friend, who lives in Louisiana, has taken the wrong path in her life. She is doing stuff, I never thought she would, she is a completely different person and I just keep praying that she will realize life isn't all about sex and doing crazy things. It's really frustrating because no matter what I do, it seems like nothing is helping her... One of my friends has been really sick lately and another broke a few bones while on a trip during spring break, and i just pray God heals them...

This all leads me to my next point, I'm a nursing major... I don't know if I will be able to handle trauma and death... I care about people way to much to see them in pain or dying... but at the same time I want to help them get better. So I'm debating on whether I should keep my major or change, but I know God will lead me in the right direction...

A major highlight of my week was when my roomie and I convinced our friend to go to church with us. To make a long story short, when she was younger she decided she didn't want to have God in her life because her parents forced her to go to church and to do things she didn't want to do... so she quit completely... So this past she went and loved it and now plans on going regularly and getting baptized... :D

I'm sry if this doesn't make sense.. I don't reread, I just start writing... so yea I'll finish my thoughts some other day...